I was nominated by "My Life According To Me" http://danielleislivinglife.blogspot.com

Requirements:
- Name your nominator and provide a link to that persons blog.
- Post 11 facts about yourself.
- Answer 11 questions from your nominator.
- Nominate 11 other bloggers.
- Ask 11 questions for your chosen bloggers.

11 Facts About Me:

1) I am a certified affiliated counselor for the state of WA.

2) I am working on my Master's in Psychology to become a therapist.

3) I am a huge gamer girl, I play anything from table top, to RPG board, computer games, and consoles.

4) for the better part of three years I slowly lost the ability to use my pinky and ring finger on my right (dominate) hand due to an injury from work. I'm currently going through Physical Therapy to fix it and may have a second surgery soon.

5) I am currently trying to get in shape and use Jillian Michaels 360 Navigation program to keep on track.

6) I like to make graphics using Photoshop Elements.

7) my left arm is covered in tattoos that are inspired by P!nk and her music.

8) I have worn glasses so long that wearing contacts makes me feel subconscious about what others may think.

9) I am engaged to my partner and we have been together for 4 years.

10) I hate shopping, especially for clothes, because it takes forever. 

11) I suffer from PTSD and have been trying to find a balance between using medication and eating healthier to keep it under control.

My 11 Questions to my Nominees: 

1. what is your middle name and do you like or hate it?

Can't believe I'm actually going to put this, Rebecca-Lynn is my middle name and I absolutely hate it. I'm actually going to legally change my name all together once I have the money.

2. where is your favorite place to go on vacation and why?

Um, I have never really been on a vacation but if I could go, it would be England because I love the culture over there.

3. what is your favorite thing to do, out and about, on your weekend?

I am unemployed, so it's always my weekend. I would have to say that gaming is my favorite thing to do, helps keep my anxiety level down.

4. how often do you workout and what are your workouts like?

I am currently working out 15-20 a day usually doing chores around the house. I have recently gotten into playing Zumba. I have to be careful with workouts because I have vestibular migraines that are trigger by to much activity.

5. what is the meal you would have as your last meal? 

If you would have asked me this a month ago I would say hands down, chicken pot pie. Now that I have started a new way of eating it would probably be Kashi Island Vanilla cereal with a banana and almond milk. Taste amazing I have it every morning for breakfast.

6. what are two of our favorite names?

Nikita and Josephine

7. what chore do you hate doing?

Cleaning the bathroom, I won't ever do it my partner has to.

8.What is your longest relationship? 

My current relationship 4 years and going strong :)

9. Do you have a favorite number? If yes, why is that your favorite number? 

13 has always been my favorite number and I always have the best luck on Friday the 13th.

10. Are you crafty? 

To an extent yes, but I do most of my crafting via photoshop. 

11. Do you or will you have kinds? How many?

I am not sure whether or not I will ever have kids. I have three cats does that count?

I nominate:

Amber: http://www.mythreebittles.com

Melissa: http://www.luluandsweetpea.com

Angie: http://www.mysocalledchaos.com

Chloe: http://www.rainbowsandhoneysuckle.com/?m=1

Lanaya: http://raising-reagan.com/

Heather: http://www.frugalfitfamily.com

I don't have any more tags to add :/

11 questions for my nominees 

1) What is your favorite TV show?

2) Who is your favorite actor/actress?

3) What one movie could you watch over and over again without it every getting boring?

4) What is your least favorite vegetable?

5) Who is your favorite music artist?

6) If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?

7) If a stranger came up and gave you a million dollars in cash what would you do?

8) What is one of your guilty pleasure songs?

9) What is your dream job?

10) If you could meet one celebrity who would it be?

11) What is one thing you wish you could have done differently?

Have fun! I know I did :)

Possibility of setting myself back 3 years

So I went to physical therapy yesterday and my therapist said that my hand is at a place where I can start doing the circuits that JM has set for me on the app. To be honest I'm terrified of putting any weight down on my hand.

Three years ago I pulled the tendons for my pinky and right finger off the knuckle. It took them a long time to figure out what I did and over time I slowly lost the ability to use those fingers. During the time I also lost muscle in the palm of my hand and the doctor said it wasn't supposed to be that way, basically he could feel the mechanics of my hand and you are not supposed to be able to do that. Then we discovered I was born without a certain tendon in my pinky which was weird but kind of cool at the same time.

I don't want my hand to go back to the way it was three years ago or even 6 months ago. I go to do one of her circuits and get major anxiety thinking I can pull them off again. I've been told by the dr and my pt that this would be impossible because of the scar tissue that formed.

I want to get over this fear so that I can start actually like I'm getting what I paid for. I don't have much encouragement at home and I'm constantly reminded of the things I can't do.... Like make a fist or hold my steering wheel properly. I just don't know how to break the barrier, so to speak.

I listen to Jillian's podcasts, I have been listening to her books, unlimited and slim for life, I got the bodymedia to track my activity. I even got Zumba and have been having fun with that when I can. To add to my hand injury I also suffer from Vestibular migraines which can be brought on by working out, take on my PTSD and there are days where I lay on the couch and eat an entire small pizza from papa johns by myself. I also can't seem to get passed eating more then 900 calories a day unless I make some sort of crap processed food that I enjoy but shouldn't eat.

Needless to say I'm about ready to give up but everytime I eat crap I feel like crap and then I remind myself what happened at Jillian's show. She knew who I was from twitter and it made me feel great, and I decided if she could take the time to care about me and remember me from the 100s if not 1000s of tweets she gets a day I can do the same for myself.

I've never been very good at reaching out for help I've always been the one who finds the solution to the problem because I had no choice. So, I'm reaching out now hoping that somehow I can break this endless cycle of me giving up on myself. I figure if I put this out there that maybe it will help take some of the pressure off that I have out on myself because of losing my job and getting irritated that my dominant had doesn't work like it used to. All in all I just need to know and feel that I have someone on my side because while I logically get everything that is being said to me I am way better at helping others get healthy and fail at getting healthy myself.